i told ya. i cant have a blog. i will have the laziness attitude not to update my blog. moving on, this june holiday is such a hardcore period of my life. i have to study 24/7. if i'm not touching my books for a min, my mum will scold me like fuck. but whatever, it will be worth it. i can enjoy all i care after the o's.anyway, i think i'm in love.
WITH JADEN SMITH!
but back to reality, i get fucking jealous when i see couples. i just read hurul's and syuk's blog just now and i felt like crying. they're sooo sweet. *sigh* its been sooo long since i'm in a relationship. i get jealous when i see couples but sometimes, when i think of it, its better to be single. my mum has been giving me a lot of relationship talks. i think she realised that i'm growing up and will experience love. its fun to be single. i mean you can have crushes and all. having a crush at somebody is soooo fun. like if your crush is in the same school as you, you couldnt wait for the weekends to end so that you can see your crush. i get v jealous esp when that couple have been together for more than a year. well, my past relationship doesnt last that long. its because i get very sick and tired of boys easily. when i was showering just now, i was thinking of dating chinese guy. what would it be like? are chinese guys the same as malay guys? or are they much more caring and loving? i dated a chinese guy back in primary school days and that's the longest of all the relationships that i had. but if i were to date a chinese guy, will my parents approve our relationship. im the one who like to let my parents know who i'm dating when i'm in a relationship. each time i want to get serious about love, there's always things that gets in the way. like my mind is telling me that do not fall in love right now. concentrate on your o's. there will be plenty of guys out there once you enter poly. ergh,i seriously DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO RIGHT NOW. but i believe in my fate :) i believe that i will meet my special someone one day. but now, i want to date as many guys as possible. fuck, i sound soo desperate -.-
